This is a post for rumours.
Where one person declared you did something you would never ever do, and makes all your friends believe so you feel like you're in the center of judgment? Where someone says to you, that someone said so and so, and you are just so shocked the people believe it, and you don't know where to start? But then, you think it doesn't matter what they think, I can always lean on... Hm, who again?
This post is for rejection.
Where you give your heart out to someone, and they take it only to tell you they can't handle it? Where they cave under the non-apparent pressure? Where they tell you excuses on a daily basis, and blame it on themselves, not you? Where you give them the world, and they throw it away? Where you don't think things are going to work, but you are too afraid to call it quits, because you know that when you do call it quits, this loneliness is now concrete? Something you can't run away from?
This post is for being scared.
Where you don't think you can do, and it is the scariest thing in your world right now? Where you try your hardest, only to be pushed down like a fool? Where you are afraid to say how you feel, because you know all you worked for, everything. will hit the fan?
This post is for complexity.
Where all you want is something simple, but it always ends up so difficult? Where you think it will be easy, but it only becomes another priority on the "fix it" list? Where that little comment becomes a huge deal, something that acts like an anchor to yourself? Where you are being something you are not, because it only works if you stay this way?
This post is for lies. Where you want the truth, and want to live the simple life, but you fall into the trap, never able to escape? This post is for the questions you get everyday, and give the same excuse, but you know that whole is there? Where you know it's all in their hands, but they do nothing? Where it could be there, and you lie, saying it is there, but really it isn't?
The post is for you, and you. This is for the people I talk to daily, who still don't care. This is for the person I'm waiting for, and feeling more and more like a failure. This post is for living another day, in life.
