Something andante please

ok spanish love songs will do.

Boom! Christmas is done. And now, new years. I just want to get wasted really badly and follow my record of making out with my least preferred sex for no good fucking reason.

Another year is over. Ok i'm done with capitalization.

how do i wrap up this year? oh jeez... first off long.  it feels like ages between prom and when i moved into my apartment.

i must say this year has been so diverse. i've encounter the lowest lows along with the highest highs of my life. weird how they go hand in hand.

i can't seem to think about this year and be able to define it exactly. it feels just so damn radical.

i'm happy it's over and we're headed to 2013. not because i had a bad year, but because i'm ready to move on, forward in time and my life.

there are some people in this world i love. just typing the above made me think of this one guy. ahh

eaasssyyyyyy

why won't you try and contact me? hmph.

well tomorrow is going to be equally as productive as today, which means i'll be doing nothing. it's nice. but i really need to shower. my back is hurting from all the practicing and (more so) the sitting idly at the computer. I want to talk or move, something. damn weather.

parents have a bunch of sheet music here, and i'm working on sight reading. i mean i'm not a great piano player, but my forte is sight reading without a doubt.

well this is not going to make sense and that's ok. one day at a time. one day.

happy new years, guys. i hope to see you all soon. also hopefully i won't see you when i'm drunk and offer you a -- actually let's just leave it there. best not bring up touchy subjects.

the help is a good movie.

i like the colour beige.

jasmine tea is my favourite drink ever.

i'm going to waste my life playing minecraft.

bye!

k310

Well fuck.

Ok craziness.

Soon I will be home.

One

more

day.

One one one one one.

Amazement

Call me Alexander.

Or call me tommy.

sometimes I feel so lost, so confused, not sure what to do, but sometimes i feel so at home, like I belong. sometiimes i feel like everything is a perfect disaster, and everything is upside down but i'm ok with that .

i'm done exams! yay!

i spend this evening out with truly amazing people. louise, stephan, and her other students. truly a wondrous evening. there are people out there that just make you happy to be alive. those are the people who make me happy. i don't know what i'd do without the laughs, and jokes, the drinks and food

next week i return to my home in ottawa, just until university again. i was once itching to get away, but now i just want to stay, with these people who fill my life with energy.

sometimes

everything is so beautiful

thank you world

Cb

Well, December 7th is is. Crazy to think a new year is winding down on us.

The image I project of myself is a very important aspect of who I am. Might be crazy of me to think this. This also means that when someone i trust and like tells me that the image I project is one I would consider negative can really affect me. can one's outward image reflect their sexual preference? should i take a certain label negatively? How do I respond when I am negatively effected by something like this?

questions!

it bothers me that the best part of my day involves walking to and from school. Something happens where i just walk the streets of montreal and get lost in the sounds of the city. Something about the grey and blue that makes me smile so uncontrollably. the beautiful people in the streets and the movement of trafic makes me feel confident. 

I create my reality. I like my reality, kinda. 

Ah busyness! Why must exams happen all at the same time? Also I'm tired of paying bills and i'm only 18. 

what else to complain about? ah nothing. i'm prepared for all my exams, and what i'm not prepared for, I will be in time. good feeling indeed!