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How are we all doing in here? Good? Good!

Tonight I'm going to see Carmen, my first real opera experience. I've never really liked opera very much, but hopefully it will change my views about operas in general.

Yesterday Julia got mad at me for only doing my own dishes? I'll never understand.

School is good, almost finished. I can't believe I'll be done my 3rd year. I feel like university has taken forever but also gone by so fast. Me transferring probably made if feel this way. My life is a paradox!

I watched a Rosie O'Donnell stand up. She's kinda funny, also she pulls all stops when it comes to talking about her personal life -- her heart attack, her wife's cancer thing, her kids in general. Which is pretty cool I guess, and she seems surprisingly down to earth which is nice to see in celebrities.

I'm going to keep this entry kinda short because this is my blog and I call the shots.

BYE!

sup bitches

wow it's almost like i'm updating regularly!

i hope y'all be doing good. going to ottawa for 3 days or so soon. i like the fact i don't visit ottawa frequently.

today i practiced a lot of piano. it was nice! there is something about practicing that feels so good. like after you practice your brain is just buzzing, like it's electric. i find i can't stop thinking about things, and all i want to do is talk to people and move around. piano is really great (and awful)

i really need a good viola teacher though -- surprisingly hard to find in montreal.

i hope you all are having fun in what ever you're all doing. life is great!

the job is so great, i really love my job there. it looks like i might get a company email address too, which'll be dope~

wei has been pretty sick, same with julia. i've been making lots of soup for these sorry bums.

education so far is fun, kinda ridiculous. i'm meeting some teachers though, and they seem cool. teaching in an alternative high school sounds really nice. in fact, i do wish i had gone to an alternative high school. i think that would've been a really great experience for me. had i known or had the option to go to a different high school i think i would have. i think that the few friend i made at my high school are amazing and i really think they're great, i just feel like i could have gotten more out of my high school experience had i gone to an alternative high. who knows though! my highschool seems to have done more good for me, than bad, from the looks of it this far.

might i mention i have a growing resentment for public and private schools alike.

i guess

it's been a while since i've written something.

how y'all motherfuckers doing? yea

yeaaaa

school is good, taking some education this term, did some camputur science last term. Both are great!

I don't think I'm ever going to graduate and that sounds dreadful.

Education courses though seem to be 70% total BS. Having taking serious courses in math and comp sci, I feel like education is just... really going no where fast. Obviously this only specific to my experience, not to generalize to all education programs out there. I guess I'm saying I liked the challenge that computer science offered, thinking for days about how to approach complex assignments, reading the assignment questions over and over, searching the web for answers, source code and syntax. now in ed, all i have to do is barf out a pathetic few page paper and get a 90%. I'm not saying I'm a genius because as comp sci has shown me, in comparison to others i'm really not number one. I am saying that the ed courses that i'm in feel worthless. who cares about getting a 90% on an assignment if you did it the night before in 2 hours? getting a 90% on a comp sci assignment that i spend 3 consecutive days exclusively doing is much more rewarding.

how to strike the balance! difficult vs. achievable vs. satisfying.

school schmool.

work at the ortho association is really so much fun! and interesting.

wei and are going to stay in for v-day. what're y'alls plans? i hope you guys have fun.

until next time when i complain about something else that annoys me!

au revoir~

it's been all too long!

sorry y'all for the lack of updates. i got an actual journal like a real person and thus i don't need the blog as much.


my life pretty much hasn't changed. all around insecurities. i mean, i know little more about what is a feasible future for me. i guess little by little these things end up working out somehow

tonight there will be 8 people sleeping in my apartment. i only have 2 roommates. what!

i saw steph tonight and got some more insight into my eye problem as professors and students gathered around me looking at my eyes remarking how strange they work. all in french nonetheless. get away from me you people!

steph is doing really well and is in a very good place. i'm happy to hear this. i care deeply about her.


in celebration of my mum's birthday i will be going to ottawa. i don't know what i will be getting for her on her birthday. I'm thinking some tea or something like that. i know she likes art and stuff, so maybe something like that. they actually bought my train tickets and are putting me on business class for my trip back to montreal. very nice of them to do that for me.


alright, goodnight my space kitties. sleep tight! don't let the bed bugs bite! i hope to update more frequently.

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here i am!

how is it that i'm some how working 2 jobs again this year!

i want to leave montreal.

life, so stressful.

mcgill is hard work, yo.

ohhhhhhhhhhhhho

blarg.

this term so far

has been bananas. i'm not talking like regular bananas, but straight up b-an-an-an-as

i told my boyfriend to come to my place after work. i told him i was going to be asleep. he felt like though reading in my room on his tablet, which is fine. what i don't understand is why he had to have a light on. better yet, why he turned on the lamp that shines directly on the bed. seriously? i know i invited you over but please have some consideration for those who are trying to sleep.

now i'm awake at 1 am and my plans for tomorrow have been derailed because i'm not going to get nearly enough sleep like i needed, wah.

i am pretty sure i'm going to be switching out of music. sad, kinda. but i just had so much pressure from my mother to go straight to university after highschool. i would have much preferred just workin' for a year or two or something to figure myself out. it's kind of sad to say, but that's probably a big part of why i chose music school, so i could have this time to figure things out.

anyhow now that i know what i want, my life has been essentially math. math this math that, and honestly, i really enjoy it. math is oddly fun, and right now i'm motivated to be at school and learning.  I mean sure, it's still the first month of school, but nonetheless i think it's going to be a good one.


anyway, goodnight world. I'm going to try to sleep again, wish me luck eh.

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school!

is in a week and my schedule isn't even decided.

what is going on? mcgill is actually the worst, ever

i want to leave montreal! i want to go to an ivy league school!

all these things irrelevant. sorry for having neglecting this little guy for a bit -- everything has been in transition for the last little while. things are settling though, next big hurdle will be the first month of school but once i get the flow it'll be a lot better.


for my 20th birthday, which was a few weeks ago, i finally got my mum's sewing machine! can't wait to actually be able to use it at home in montreal.

i don't know if i can really make it through the end of this school thing. it looks like i might just drop music all together, maybe. this year will tell all i guess.

here is how it goes:

plan a) do a year of part time, spend a lot of time seriously focusing on technique for piano to get up to level with the rest of mcgill then tackle my b. mus next year, as a full time quebecois student,

or plan b) do the year of serious piano work, and realize finally that music isn't for me. try in the winter term some other courses, like computer science, or my political science and change my bachelor all together.

some might say that i'm already going on to my third year of university and i still am so uncertain about my future. some might say that's a lot of wasted time, or money. i guess i kind of agree. however it's important to note that a lot of people starting university don't really know what to do. especially with my family, there is so much pressure on going to university straight after highschool. i think i would've preferred taking some time off, working little and learning about myself instead of doing that while trying to finish a BA. I would appreciate the time for self discovery and less pressure.

i guess though in a sense i have done that. i haven't been terribly involved in school outside of the social aspect and have spent a lot of time discovering what actually interests me. luckily, i have found a lot of interests to pick from.

who knows what will happen to me in the next 5 years. most likely, i'll still be in school, i think.

who knows anything!

nothing is fo' shizzle.

singing out, interwebz.