school!

is in a week and my schedule isn't even decided.

what is going on? mcgill is actually the worst, ever

i want to leave montreal! i want to go to an ivy league school!

all these things irrelevant. sorry for having neglecting this little guy for a bit -- everything has been in transition for the last little while. things are settling though, next big hurdle will be the first month of school but once i get the flow it'll be a lot better.


for my 20th birthday, which was a few weeks ago, i finally got my mum's sewing machine! can't wait to actually be able to use it at home in montreal.

i don't know if i can really make it through the end of this school thing. it looks like i might just drop music all together, maybe. this year will tell all i guess.

here is how it goes:

plan a) do a year of part time, spend a lot of time seriously focusing on technique for piano to get up to level with the rest of mcgill then tackle my b. mus next year, as a full time quebecois student,

or plan b) do the year of serious piano work, and realize finally that music isn't for me. try in the winter term some other courses, like computer science, or my political science and change my bachelor all together.

some might say that i'm already going on to my third year of university and i still am so uncertain about my future. some might say that's a lot of wasted time, or money. i guess i kind of agree. however it's important to note that a lot of people starting university don't really know what to do. especially with my family, there is so much pressure on going to university straight after highschool. i think i would've preferred taking some time off, working little and learning about myself instead of doing that while trying to finish a BA. I would appreciate the time for self discovery and less pressure.

i guess though in a sense i have done that. i haven't been terribly involved in school outside of the social aspect and have spent a lot of time discovering what actually interests me. luckily, i have found a lot of interests to pick from.

who knows what will happen to me in the next 5 years. most likely, i'll still be in school, i think.

who knows anything!

nothing is fo' shizzle.

singing out, interwebz.

i'm back bitches

it's late so i'll keep it short

worked tonight, birthday soon, seeing family then too, which is cool.

there is a bug in the lamp, and the cat is trying to get it.

wish me a happy 20th, empty void that is the internet.

xo

the long day is over

wahhhhh

tonight was absolutely miserable. my job can either be so amazing or so truly terrible.

tonight my boss was in a bad mood and my coworker was just not being helpful. i don't know why, i was just so stressed out. i cried in the bathroom, and now cried when i got home

luckily the response from my lovely boyfriend was "welcome to the big league". wow thanks, ultra helpful. then he bitches about how i didn't talk about him setting up an IKEA bed frame alone. meanwhile the restaurant i worked at maybe over 1000 dollars in my shift (with 2 other people, in ~6 hours). he also knew i cried (twice). UGH

tomorrow i get to see Nikole and Zach, which'll be nice, actually. looking forward to it.

thanks for listening, internet.

xo